Day 2 identity Moxie Katherine

Moxie Katherine my first born. She got her name from my late nights watching history channel while prego.  On one program they were talking about old sodas, and Moxie was one of them! I loves it! Katherine was after my great grandma. I loved the names, the meanings, all of it. When we found out she would be stillborn. I knew even more that she was that she would need that spunky sassy name!!!

Capture your grief day 1 sunrise

Sunrise In Florence Oregon! I hope to participate every day this month!!!!

White Bluff Tennessee

Thoughts in my head

I lay in bed and watch your sister sleep. You are always in my mind.

I wonder when I next meet you if you will be young or have grown?

How do I make it without you?

I stare at your picture, I hold your urn.

I long to hold you and see you smile. 

I cling to your sister and know only you two have shared that space inside me. And somehow that means you are connected. 

First word blog

So my husband, myself, and our rainbow baby were walking into a store the other day. We pass another couple with a set of twins about the same age, 1ish.  The mother says "I will trade you two for one!"

She didn't mean anything by it, she didn't know me or my situation. But I started balling. And guess what that is okay! 

I would give anything to have both my girls with me. But a simple comment can affect you very deeply!

Elizabethton Tennessee, awesome location!

This is a photo of Fort Watauga on the Sycamore Shoals State Park in Elizabethton, TN. This fort was the first official settlement in this area of Upper East Tennessee!

Thank you again for everyone who sends me these!!!! It means so much!

Eugene Oregon Color Me Rad 5k Run

Moxie joined me and her little sis at the 5k! Two of my friends wrote her name for me!!!!

Moxie part of something special, Thailand!

This pic is taken in thailand, phuket, at the "big buddha" temple high up on a mountin with view over phuket.
They have been building it for 9 years now and think it will be ready in 5 years. It has been built only with donations. Big buddha is 45 meters high and 25 meters wide. Its very beautiful.
We wrote Moxie on a white marble stone that will be a part of the big buddha.

Genova Italy, also where Moxie's great great grandma was from!!!!!

My mom also pointed out that this is where her grandma was from! So special!!!!!!

Raleigh North Carloina, are you ready for some Moxie!

This is truly beautiful from Raleigh! I love looking up the wonderful places she visits! I lay here next to our 2nd daughter, 10 months old today. Moxie would be two and a half. I miss her every second! I love telling our daughter about her big sis.
For those of you who question that I have two kids, trust me. I never forget either of them. You don't replace the one that passed away you share every moment with those in your life still! I love both my girls with all my heart! Xoxoxo

Moxie in Como Italy!

This was from someone who saw my pea pod video from Robin Moses Nail Art Wizard!!!!

This is so beautiful, as is all her work! You can see more at http://www.youtube.com/user/TheEmanueleCastelli Thank you!